I'm blue

It seems to me that as of late, I've had far more blue days than happy go lucky days. It really kind of bothers me that this is the case. I'm trying to stay positive, but there are just so many things that I allow to drag me down.

There seems to be an ongoing theme in my life as of late. It's called making choices.

I think it was Sir Issac newton that once said "For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction" and that seems to be very true in my life as of late.

I'm tired more frequently, so I go to bed earlier. Since I'm sleeping more, I find it more diffivult to get up so I choose to hit the snooze button, and end up racing to work.

I want to work out, but I choose to sit on the chair and do nothing about it.

I want to be positive, but I choose to let negative emotions take over once they start. Once those negative emotions start, I tend to distance myself from those around me who I value. When i distancve myself from them, I begin to feel lonely. Sometimes, I feel like I could be in a room full of people and still feel like the only one there. Other times, I feel like I would be the life of the party... You know the guy who is dacning around on the tablewith the lamp shade on his head or some other absurd thing.

I'm not sure why I feel this way, but it really bothers me. Someone suggested I go to church conference, I went, enjoyed it, and then got upset. I went to a session last night. I enjoyed 99% of it, but found myself upset at the end. Why? Because I CHOSE to be upset and let it bother me.

Sometimes, I just don't know...